time is...

tickin, time is tickin away...
so we just wrapped up week 3 of teaching although technically it is already week 4 of the somd. and so far each week has been better still than the one before... John Bills, Steve Shamblin and Glenn Sheppard... honestly i couldnt say where i learned the most. it is like a well or a storehouse has been sprung open somewhere and is simply spilling out and over.

So far it seems like Johns teaching went to the mind, Steves to the spirit/ soul and Glenns or Papa Gs as we like to call him went straight to the heart. Of course, this is generalising it quite a bit, its just to break it down a little.

But i have to say the most chatty person by far has been God himself or maybe its simply a matter of me finally listening and paying attention again. :) either way i am lovin it. It's like I am finding my way home again. which ties right into something that i have kind of sensed ever since i started planning coming back to the States - it is this inexplicable feeling of having come full circle, yeah, of coming home. Odd as that may be.

love so amazing, so divine, demands my soul, my life, my all

when you call my name

There’s a hunger in this wilderness for Your revelation
To hear the words of life that strengthen me
Come and show what You’ve prepared for me
Speak your confirmation
Show me how I fit into Your plan

For when You call my name I can see again
Who You are and who I’m meant to be
And as you beckon me I am free to see
Who You are and who I’m sent to be

I am seeking true identity in the light of Your presence
I am longing to know how You see me
In the time that You have given me, release the strength to follow
And the grace to be who You say I am

Father Christmas has come to town

it seems unbelievable but we are already halfway through our 4th week! Isnt it simply amazing how time flies when you are having a good time. Good?? What am I saying... I'm having a blast. God is so absolutely awesome.
Anyways our teacher this week is Glenn Sheppard, Papa G and it is sooo good. He simply touches your heart just by who he is and by allowing God to shine through him. His topic is the price and cost of revival and we are learning so much. Although it can get a little embarrassing at times when you pierces you with this stare, that makes you feel like you're being x-rayed or rather that he simply KNOWS!!!

love you guys,
keep in touch...
Hanna

Identity - to be loved and to give it away

This week was about identity in the context of ‚Healing the fractured soul, the wounded spirit.’ It was intense! And quite uncomfortable at times because it got so personal and yet it was sooo good. There are two things in particular that God really pointed out to me this week.
1. a lot of the insecurity, uncertainty and confusion during the past months and years particularly in regards to my calling had to do with me being in conflict with my own identity. Unconsciously I simply couldn’t or wouldn’t accept my giftings and thus my calling, who I am.
2. without knowing it, I had transferred my experiences/disappointments with people and especially with spiritual leadership onto God. This left me believing I couldn’t trust God.
And it’s been these two things that have been holding me back all this time, because God in his infinite mercy, put his plans with and for me on hold for as long as necessary. Because He ALWAYS cares more about us and our hearts, than he does about a ministry.

A very big part of my identity is the gift to love people unconditional and selfishly. To love them as they are, no strings attached and regardless of whether they love me in return or not. This may sound great in theory, but in reality it can cause a lot of hurt and heartache. Which is why it was one of my main issues with my identity, something I’ve tried to deny for years – as a result I ended up pushing people away instead of loving them, shutting them out instead of embracing them.
For this I want to sincerely ask your forgiveness. I don’t want to hide any longer, but rather stand for who I am and for all the gifts, big and small, that God has given me. Cause this is the crucial point in all this – it is God who gives those gifts – so that I (we) may use them to bring Him glory.
In His infinite and unconditional love
Hanna

JUST REACH OUT!!!!!!!!!!

you know how much I love music and lyrics... this one goes out to all the ones who feel alone, lonely, unheard, unseen and unloved tonight. I hope it touches your heart.

JUST REACH OUT

Sometimes the night seems to go on for days
When it's hard to see the light through the darkness and haze
While the world around you makes you feel out of place
And the burdens that you carry are just too hard to face

Just reach out and He'll reach in
Take your broken heart and make it whole again
It don't matter who you are or where you've been
Just reach out and He'll reach in

Standing in the crowd still all alone
Crying out for answers that nobody knows
Everybody's busy looking out for themselves
Is there anyone who really cares about anyone else?

Just reach out and He'll reach in
Take your broken heart and make it whole again
It don't matter who you are or where you've been
Just reach out and He'll reach in

You say you walk ten thousand steps away
But don't you know that its only one step back?
Because the One who hears you when you pray
Is the One who's there beside you
and He'll never walk away!

taken from PETRA's 'wake up call' album
Good Night to you all.
xoxo, Hanna

back to school... again

by now I've been Orlando for two weeks. The first week was mainly an orientation week where we had a chance to get to know our fellow students a little bit more.
In our school we are 8 students:
Tori, 18, Texas Sue, 21, Florida Caitlyn, 19, Illinois Rebekah - better known as Ireland, 21, North Carolina Myssi, 28, Illinois Aaron, 19, Texas Lee, 30, Virginia
and me of course, yours truly
This week we had our first official teaching week with John Bills (he happens to be the son-in-law of Jim and Joy Dawson). The topic was "Bringing God into the Decision Making Process/ Conflict Resolution". Two major topics if you think about it. I am telling you some of the sessions were really intense, made only more so by us students being led to astonishing openness and honesty.
Still it was really good.
And from the sound of it next won't be shy of intensity either - we'll be hearing Steve Shamblin on Identity with a focus on healing the fractured soul!!! WOW!
I'm as excited as I am nervous. :D

I'll keep you posted.
Hope you have a blessed sunday tomorrow.
In Him,
Hanna